I’m soangry. I went to a show for the first time in almost a year with this guy I’ve recently started to really like, I was nervous at first because I barely knew anyone in the show scene anymore, I got detached from my friends dating josh. I felt like… An outcast. And I was scared I was going to see josh. I haven’t seen him at all since we broke up, only received texts from him that really hurt me so I just cut off all connection with him. After the first band I started watching I really started to loosen up, and enjoy myself with the extremely cute guy I had gone to the show to see. Then I see josh… Standing next to my car. He talked to me and had this look the whole time that just scared me.
So I left early. I regret that I did now. And I actually kind of wanted to see Real Friends live. I didn’t want the guy to think I’m embarrassed to be seen with him by josh, because I’m not, I don’t care about That. But now he probably thinks that 😪 it was just the first time I saw josh since we ended it and I was scared he was going to say mean things to me and embarrass me and I didn’t want to take that chance. I drove home pissed off at myself. The one thing that I didn’t want to happen and the one person I didn’t want to see happened. I drove home in complete silence with no music or smoking without realising it until I got home. :/
No body wants to talk to a girl who has shit like that going on, I’m an idiot.